tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-80425531476264832542024-02-22T08:00:20.567-06:00Overcoming my inner perfectionismI started this blog to help me, to heal me. I deal with Perfectionism. I have this image that if I'm perfect, I'm in control. By writing my thoughts and troubles down, I know I can heal.
Perfectionism doesn't have to control my life anymore. With this blog, I can finally let go. Let go of trying to be perfect.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.comBlogger57125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-33394031507794609342015-08-26T10:31:00.000-05:002015-08-26T10:31:09.909-05:00Not so perfect vacation<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I tend to over pack for vacations. <br />
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Ok, that's an understatement. Basically, I try to figure out every situation that I'm going to possibly be in and prepare and plan (and pack) to make sure I avoid not being prepared. Camping is a signature thing of mine that I tend to overpack for. I think as a perfectionist that is the one thing that bothers me the most, is the fear of not being prepared for something. <br />
<br />So when all said and done, my car is usually the one that looks like something from the Clampett Family from Beverly Hillbillies.<br />
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However, this past weekend we decided to take the kids camping for only 1 night. Because my husband knows me and because he knows we were only going for 1 night (and bringing the dog), he simply asked if we could not "plan" and "pack" like we usually do. He said just grab a few things and go.<br />
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Funny, because that wasn't even part of my vocabulary, but I went with it. The book I've been reading to overcome perfectionism talks about trying to take a "unplanned" vacation and see what happens.<br />
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When we got there, I certainly felt the repercussions of not being prepared. I had forgotten a slew of things including Ketchup for the hotdogs, Chocolate and Marshmallows for the s'mores, chairs that we could sit on while we ate, breakfast for the morning and whole bunch of other things. So needless to say, it was a not so perfect camping trip. However at that moment while we all "stood" in front of the campfire eating our plain hotdogs and buns, we all laughed and said, "definitely a trip to remember."<br />
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You know what, our "unplanned" trip ended up being a lot of fun and no, the world did not end because we had to eat hotdogs without ketchup, and graham crackers for breakfast. It was just the 5 of us, enjoying nature and our family. Some of the best memories I guess come from "unplanned" and not so perfect vacations.<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-56182170950609967482015-08-06T12:14:00.001-05:002015-08-06T12:14:37.671-05:00Time gets the best of me!<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
My, my, time has gotten the best of me! It's been several months since I've posted (due mostly because of the overwhelming life of a select baseball season for my 12 year old son). It seems like one moment you are sitting down, planning your summer out and the next, it's August and you're trying to figure out where your summer went. <br />
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This weekend, my family and I are unplugging a little bit and traveling 5 hours to the Niobrara River to do some much needed R&R before the crazy school starts on Monday. Which brings me to my point of today's blog post. <br />
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I think so many times when we get in stressful situations and we are pulled in a million ways and all you can think about is how to safely clone yourself, we tend to be overly perfectionist in our ways. Or at least I do. I want the first day of school to go by without a hitch, I want lunches and meals and getting to sports on time to be perfectly planned out and of course on top of that, be tip top for my job and be a loving wife, all done with one single hiccup.<br />
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And the reality of all of that is that really is only in a perfect world, but realizing that is a huge step. It's realistically not all going to get done, the kids aren't going to have all brand new school clothes before school starts, their lunches aren't going to be perfectly packed, breakfast will be served for dinner at least one time before the month ends, and yes, there's going to be hiccups and obstacles to overcome at work and in your personal life. I think so many times I did have that vision, but I'm really starting to realize that that was an unrealistic vision. It's ok to not have everything go as planned.<br />
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Everyday is a series of ins and outs. Learning how to breathe through all of them is the key.</div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-74303627119447367752015-04-23T10:56:00.000-05:002015-04-23T10:56:18.341-05:00You don't have to be a perfect Mom- In honor of "Mother's Day"<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
First most, Happy Mother's Day to all the moms out there and moms-to-be for this upcoming Mother's Day. With this special holiday coming up, I wanted to take a moment and reflect on a common stigma I most often have in my mind. I want to be a perfect mom. But in all reality, I'm not a perfect mom, I don't have it all together and yes, I have flaws. But I think so many times, I put so much pressure on myself to be all that I can be for my children, be perfect in their eyes. If I'm perfect for them, then I'm in control. If I'm perfect for my husband and kids then there's no stress, no feeling like I'm screwing things up. We all go through these emotions, but it has got to stop. We are simply human, and can't do it all. <br />
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So instead of beating myself up, because I do have flaws, embrace being a mother and all that comes with it. Yes, my life is going to be a chaotic mess sometimes, yes my house is going to be a disaster at times. But being a mother of three wonderful kids couldn't replace anything in the world, and I just have to embrace it. Enjoy my time I do have.</div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-75173709145003588732015-03-08T10:38:00.000-05:002015-03-08T10:43:05.229-05:00Failure to delegate<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I think my mentality of "I can do it all" has influenced my tendency to mistrust that others can do things properly. With that mistrust, I sometimes fail to delegate even small tasks. I admit, I have trouble trusting others with a task unless I'm sure they can complete the task perfectly. <br />
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Take cleaning for example. I'd rather do it all and do it all by myself, then having others help, with fear that the house won't be cleaned to my standards. Even though my husband and children offer to help, in which they do, I feel this need to go back over things and make sure they were done correctly. This is a troublesome area in my life. I don't want to do it all. I don't have the time or mentality to clean my entire house by myself. I don't even enjoy doing the chores. But I am so reluctant to let others help in fear that these mundane tasks won't be done correctly to my standards. Why is this?<br />
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This is a huge area in my life where I'm having to figure out if this is a helpful or unhelpful standard that I have set for myself. This overly high standard is certainly not helpful and is getting in the way of me achieving my goals, living my life. I know that this is an area in which I have to think differently on this issue. There are too many benefits that would come if I could just relax or ignore this rule, this failure to delegate. What would it take for me to start delegating and trust others with tasks?</div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-47042654177116029802015-03-04T21:34:00.000-06:002015-03-04T21:34:03.644-06:00Don't try to read the minds of others<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
The other day we were sitting down at the dinner table eating when I found myself trying to read the minds of my family members. Their silence was eating away at me and surely if they had liked the meal that I had just prepared, I thought for sure I would have heard positive comments by now. I indirectly tied their silence to some sort of failure of mine. Their silence meant that I had failed.<br />
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This was not actually the case and they ended up loving it. Their silence was just a mere moment of them enjoying their food (and not talking).<br />
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I think so many times, perfectionists try to read the minds of others. They almost in a way expect too much of others. They associate other people's actions with themselves. Perfectionist sometimes tend to think that other people's actions have something to do with themselves, or even their failures. This mind reading involves the perfectionist assuming that they know what other people are thinking.<br />
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I think realizing these relationships and really trying to stop this has helped me identify areas in which I need to work on. I don't need to try to read the minds of others, I just need to concentrate on being the best I can be and not worry so much about what other people are thinking.<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-17976958071266513462015-01-27T10:59:00.002-06:002015-01-27T10:59:42.639-06:00That moment you realize...<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
It's tough being a parent, I will be the first to admit. But I also know it's just as tough being a kid. Today I was going through my 6th grader's backpack and found his empty wallet. His wallet that once contained over $25 in cash and also a $25 gift card he got as a birthday present...completely empty. I confronted my son and asked him what happened and why his wallet was empty and where everything went. He confessed to me that he was bringing his wallet to school to buy stuff; pencils, small toys, supplies etc, from other kids. Someone got wind of him having money at school and forced him to also give up his gift card. Sad story, I know. It's just one of those stories that kindof eats away at you, leaving you heart broken for a poor 6th grader who doesn't know better.<div>
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But the point of my story is this. I think so many times as a perfectionist mom, I try to do the right thing, say the right thing, counsel the right away, and certainly discipline the right way. But reality of this all is, is that life is not perfect. I'm not always going to say the right thing or have things go the right way. I'm not going to be perfect, and certainly, my son is not going to be perfect either. Things are going to happen, mistakes are going to be made. </div>
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But today, is the moment when my son texted me this morning, telling me he wanted to go home. Go home because he felt guilty, go home because he was sad at what had happened, and go home because of how afraid he was that I was going to be mad. It was that moment that I realized, nothing perfect was going to come out of this, so my mother instincts just came through. The best I can do is just be the best mom I can be today. "Life is about learning, It's about making mistakes. Life is a learning game and we just have to move on and learn from it. Everything is going to be ok, and I'm not made at you. I love you. I'm just glad you are ok. It's all going to be ok." That is what I texted back.</div>
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Life is definitely not perfect. That moment you realize that, and just allow yourself to accept the fact that mistakes are going to happen, is the moment we learn from it and just move on.</div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-83017090438997586062015-01-12T13:46:00.001-06:002015-01-12T13:46:10.776-06:00Learn to recognize perfectionism<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I've talked about this before, but one of the first steps in overcoming perfectionism is to recognize those behaviors of perfectionism. I think so many times we either mis-diagnose ourselves, or don't really understand all of the behaviors of perfectionism. A lot of times these behaviors can be:<br />
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<li>overcompensating for errors</li>
<li>over rehearsing for speeches, presentations</li>
<li>excessive checking of work</li>
<li>excessive reassuring of themselves</li>
<li>excessive organizing</li>
<li>failure to delegate</li>
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If you can say yes or check off any on this list, you can then begin to recognize the behavior patterns of perfectionism. The reason it's so important to first recognize that is to be able to identify what it is you need to work on. If you can relate to anything on that list then you can begin to correct it.</div>
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For instance I have a great need for organization. I have list upon list, and if organization is not part of my daily life, I freak out. Its gotten so bad that even my high standard I have set for myself with organization is so high, that it's impossible to even attain. Recognizing that this is definitely an issue and inhibiting my life, I can then take action to correct that behavior. In areas of my life, I'm actually trying really hard not to be organized. It's not necessarily about changing the perfectionism as it is as changing the behavior. I have to change my theory of this excessive need of control and once I can realize the unrealistic standard, then I can counter-correct my behavior and this need. Its definitely not easy countering this behavior, but its one step in the right direction. </div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-2374840650988063832014-11-26T09:39:00.001-06:002014-11-26T09:39:35.896-06:00Not enough?<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Do you ever feel like you are not enough? I know many times I've sat down and thought these exact words. That everything I do, all that I give, somehow, I just don't feel like I'm enough.<br />
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I had the chance to watch Mom's Night Out this weekend, and if you haven't seen it, I certainly recommend it for any mom. It touches on this very topic of being enough. I think so many times we beat ourselves up on thinking that we are not enough, or somehow we are just destined to fail. As a mom, that can certainly be the case, as a perfectionist mom, it reigns so often as true.<br />
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Jesus didn't make a mistake with us when he created us, he loves us for who we are. And the only thing we have to be is enough for ourselves. He'll take care of the rest.<br />
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Life is about finding the joy, the meaning, the purpose in all that life has to offer, even through all of the chaos. So if you are questioning if you are enough, just like I do many times in my life, the answer is yes. Yes, you are enough. You are what God intended you to be. </div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-78161642780141901332014-10-24T15:32:00.003-05:002014-10-24T15:32:36.829-05:00I can't do it all<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #333333; font-family: Verdana; font-size: 15px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">We don’t need to be superman, or superwomen, and think that we can accomplish everything, or think at any moment, we can do it all. We don’t have to be everything to everybody all the time. We just have to be the best that we can be at any given moment, and know that we can not do it all.</span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-67434907390805009862014-09-16T20:50:00.000-05:002014-09-16T20:50:12.782-05:00Stop comparing<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I've been looking at my house lately wishing it was more perfect inside. I've gotten in a habit of noticing other houses that look more "in place" than mine. Everything has a place, everything put away, it seems so ideal. So beautiful. I find myself than comparing my house to others. If I'm over at a friends house or just happen to see a beautiful house in the paper, or news, I quickly find myself jealous and wanting my house to look just like that.<br />
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I take a look around, and there's clothes everywhere, clean clothes waiting to be folded on the couch, dirty ones waiting to be washed. Things that have been brought home from school that are now sitting on our desk. Shoes crowding up the hallway. Paperwork piling up in every little space, and somehow every nook and cranny seems to be filled. As much as I try to clean up, I never can get to that "perfect" everything in its place look. The kind that just stepped out of a for sale ad. You know the type.<br />
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So then I get mad and notice my perfectionism creeping through. I find myself asking "how do I get my house perfect?" Perhaps I do need to spend some time getting rid of things. But number one thing, I need to stop comparing my house to others. My house is beautiful, it really is. I need to just focus on what I can change inside and stop comparing to what other people have. My house does not need to be perfect like theirs. If I truly want my house to look different, and this is more about wanting a change in the house, than I need to start small and start with one room at a time. No need to waste my time hoping to make my house perfect.</div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-13668168610808764892014-08-30T09:12:00.002-05:002014-08-30T09:12:55.289-05:00Mistakes will happen. We're only human<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
For so long I've had this phobia of making mistakes. I tend to get so hung up on mistakes and if a mistake happens, it seems like the end of the world. What I've been trying to teach myself is that mistakes will happen. It's part of life and we're human. And what I really need to concentrate on is that mistakes <u>should </u>happen. It's those opportunities when a mistake happens that gives us opportunities to truly learn and develop. <br />
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Understanding that mistakes happen is a big key. Get over it. Move on. It's part of life.<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-91221094820336448632014-08-20T09:36:00.002-05:002014-08-20T09:36:20.406-05:00Short guide on perfectionism<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I read an article today about <a href="http://success.com/article/a-short-guide-to-taming-your-inner-perfectionist" target="_blank">"A short Guide to Taming Your Inner Perfectionist"</a> that I wanted to share with you.<br />
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There were some interesting things to do in order to start to control your perfectionism, all things that I am definitely working on and have found helpful.<br />
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1) Monitor the big picture and not the small one. Stop trying to plan everything and handle issues as they arise. Do not worry about things that may not happen.<br />
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2) Set deadlines and stick to them. Don't get wrapped up on making things perfect past your deadline.<br />
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3) Don't fret about past mistakes. The past is the past and time to move on.<br />
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4) Stop waiting for the perfect time. In reality, there never is really a perfect time, so just start now.<br />
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5) Tackle work one step at a time. Don't lose yourself thinking about the other things you need to accomplish.<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-84697703137202650472014-08-07T21:45:00.000-05:002014-08-07T21:53:56.321-05:00Perfect Conversations<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
In my head I tend to have perfect conversations. Meaning, I've researched what I'm going to say, repeated it in my mind, changed around a few things and practiced and molded what I think is a perfect conversation. That happened to me today.<br />
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I wanted to have a "serious" talk about girls, love...whatever else came to mind...with my eleven year old son. I had constructed the perfect conversation, of how I wanted to talk to him...where I was going to talk to him, how I was going to start off..what exactly I was going to say. I even researched an article about "how to talk to your kids about love." And so I began.. about 2 minutes into the conversation, I was completely losing him. Eyes rolling behind the head, thumbs twiddling, knees shaking. I knew I needed to do some differently. My "perfect" conversation, was not so perfect. And I was looking like the idiot. </div>
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My husband came into the room and said my God, it looks like you just told him his dog died. He was right. What I had molded in my head was clearly not the way I had planned it out or thought it was going to go. My husband took over and within a few bright words, turned my son around and before you know it had him smiling. That indeed was the perfect conversation I thought.</div>
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My point is, we've all had those moments, where we think of how we're going to say something, have something perfectly planned out, and the situation presents itself completely different. My learning moment today was to realize that I'm not perfect, there is no way to mold a perfect conversation. There is no way to tell exactly how a situation is going to take off, and you just need to go with it. Just go from the heart and speak what feels right at that given moment. </div>
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-43792743194589747172014-07-22T12:43:00.002-05:002014-07-22T12:43:53.243-05:00Can't control the unknown<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
One of the biggest things I'm working on is trying to let go of the fact that I can't control the unknown. I can't control what does not exist. That is, I can't control the future. As a perfectionist, and as I mentioned before, I try to plan what's going to happen next, when really, no one knows with certainty what is going to happen next. There is no way to predict the future, or what it holds. We can certainly shape our events and mold them to what we think or how we want the future to look like, but there are so many unknowns. <br />
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So instead of trying to control the future or having a delusion that that is possible, instead I'm working to accept this fact, and have trust in who I am and what I've done already. I'm accepting that I can't control the unknown. It's called life.<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-4534103559779157792014-07-03T13:13:00.001-05:002014-07-03T13:13:33.059-05:00How much time do you spend planning?<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
As a perfectionist, I tend to spend a lot of time planning the inevitable, making sure that I'm ready for anything that comes my way. Prepared for every situation. My husband jokes with me that my car has everything and anything I would ever need for every situation. And that's just how I like it. Jackets in case it gets cold. Umbrellas in case it rains. Sunscreen for hot days. Blankets, extra clothes, probably a water bottle or two, sweatshirts and the list goes on.<br />
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But as I look at this I wonder if it's my excessive attention to detail, or if I'm really spending too much time planning for every possible situation. I wonder if I spend too much time living in the future, and not the present.<br />
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I'm learning that this feeling of "control" is just an illusion. I can't really control what happens to me in the future, but I can learn how to deal with this in a positive manner.<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-961101636787073542014-06-23T21:16:00.000-05:002014-06-23T21:16:38.460-05:00When is taking it personally too much?<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
As a perfectionist, I tend to take things pretty personally. Every setback, criticism or small joke, tends to error on my personal side much more. But when is it too much? When it starts affecting your life.<br />
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As I'm healing I'm really focusing on trying to be more resilient and not take things so personal. I know that I've been guilty of taking things over the line. As perfectionists, we tend to beat ourselves up, or take every mistake or misstep and turn it into "I'm not good enough."<br />
<br />Just the other day, I got really defensive when I was criticized for being too emotional. And in reality, it's really about self image and developing it, and I need to let go of being that way. I need to give up on trying to take control and defend myself from any threats and stop taking things personal.<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-84293506164714148502014-06-20T21:38:00.002-05:002014-06-20T21:38:50.731-05:00Change<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-58764030456503232702014-05-19T21:11:00.002-05:002014-06-23T21:05:53.494-05:00There are always choices<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<span id="docs-internal-guid-84e00acc-175f-6c32-b281-80b65e70bb4b"><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I have been working on reprogramming my ways, my thinking. </span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">And in order to reprogram my perfectionist ways, I have to reprogram my choices, my decisions, knowing that there are always other choices available. I can reflect on my messy house with only thinking of how I want to change it, correct it, clean it. Perfect it. Or I can make the choice to stop and accept that my house is the best way it can be at that given moment in time. It is as perfect as it’s going to get.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">If I willingly know that there are other choices available, then I can understand that I don't only have one option. I have a choice. And choice involves two ways. I can choose one or the other.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">I think so many times I felt as if my option was the only option available. That there were no choices available. I would take a situation (like my house) and think that the only available option is to clean it. When in reality like I said above, I have the choice to stop and accept that it is the best it will be at that moment.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Arial; font-size: 15px; vertical-align: baseline; white-space: pre-wrap;">Take time to realize that there are always choices. You can choose not to perfect a situation, and at any given moment, that situation is the best that it's going to get. </span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-43508143540275770272014-05-14T20:59:00.000-05:002014-05-14T20:59:14.248-05:00Not enough time to be perfect at everything<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I tend to try to analyze my imperfections. When it seems like I have analyzed one imperfection, paused, taken a moment to stop and reflect, the next imperfection is hitting me in the face. What I mean by this is that I tend to analyze areas in my life where I'm not as perfect as can be, or things that I have done wrong, or areas where I've mistaken. I analyze them, think about them and try to come up with ways on how to do better.<br />
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Just being good, is not good enough, I tell myself. And so, I double my efforts, take care of myself less often, work harder, wake up earlier and try to do better. Analyzing imperfections is often my way of giving myself my own guilt trip, my own standard, my own understanding of what I did wrong.<br />
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But what ends up happening when I get in this vicious cycle, is just when I have one imperfection analyzed and thought out, the next imperfection comes skipping in. In reality, I'm trying to be perfect at everything, and when I'm not, I consider that an imperfection. And that's so wrong. It's taken me a long time to comprehend this thought, but when we are not perfect, that does not by any means make us a failure....make an imperfection. We don't have time to be perfect at everything. And we certainly don't have time to sit and analyze imperfections, trying every moment to make them better. Like I said, it's taken me a long time to comprehend this thought, but it is a key revolution if you can train your mind to think about that. It will be a key point in your healing.</div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-28830907679550395092014-04-28T11:14:00.001-05:002014-04-28T11:14:34.946-05:00Imperfect moments<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I think sometimes in my head I have these preconceived notions of how I think moments or events should or should not be. I have already made judgment on how I think these events should go.<br />
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I tend to be a planner and I know that the perfectionist deep inside of me has tried to plan certain events to a 'T'. However it's moments like this past Friday that really make me appreciative of imperfect moments, aka.. those moments that didn't go as planned.<br />
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Friday, we decided to take our boat out for the very first time. It's maiden voyage was everything but perfect. It was up to the point that we had the boat, loaded on the trailer and hooked up to my hitch, that I realized I had forgotten to gas up the vehicle before we did all of that. On top of that one of our trailer lights was not working. So all in a 10 minutes span, I was unhooking the boat, and running to the gas station and getting a light bulb. After that whole ordeal, we finally got out into the water. However on our way back we ended up killing the motor half way out on the lake, paddled for awhile until another boat came and rescued us and ended up being towed back to the dock. Once on the dock, my husband fell in the water. All in all with everything imperfect thing that happened, our kids turned to us and said "That was the best night ever!". My jaw dropped. In my mind, my perfectly planned out night was a disaster, but in my child's mind, perfection.<br />
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I was silent. It was amazing to me.<br />
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To hear those words, just made me think of all the moments that I tried to plan something out, or have a preconceived notion of how I wanted the event to go. But really, I just needed to experience an imperfect moment, to then realize some of the best things are unplanned. I have the choice to make any moments happy, and I can choose to make <em><strong>imperfect moments</strong></em>, happy.</div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-65401751741044881772014-03-23T18:16:00.001-05:002014-03-23T18:16:22.829-05:00Just start<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
"Your success in life will be in direct proportion to what you do AFTER you do what you are expected to do."<br />
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Now more than ever, put your perfection aside and just start. Start what it is that you have been putting off because the timing was not perfect. Start what you've been dreaming of but the perfect plan was not in place.<br />
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Now is your time. Perfectionism does not need to get in the way. Just start.<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-38543851908547182512014-03-12T16:09:00.002-05:002014-03-12T16:12:26.770-05:00 "You are enough"<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I think so many times we end up getting sucked into perfection, because we have this feeling or belief that perfection will protect us. Protect us from maybe what is the unknown, maybe it is known. Protect us from judgment, blame, or maybe even shame. If we are perfect, or live perfect, or act perfect, than we can minimize these feelings, or altogether avoid them.<br />
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I've been observing my 9 year daughter lately on this very subject. I know that deep down inside she has this great sense of feeling worthy, feeling loved, belonging. And I know this. I see it and everyday I try to nurture this need of hers with as much love and kisses, affirmations and shower of emotion that I can possibly give her. But even with that, I still see her striving for perfection, or getting mad when things have to be perfect. I told her just the other day, that I don't ever expect her to be perfect, I won't ever pass judgment on her if she's not perfect, and she should never be shamed of who she is.<br />
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We all need to feel worthy of love and belonging, and our worthiness is on the line when we feel like we are never enough.<br />
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I told this to my daughter and want to repeat it here today, "You are enough". <br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-42016889265253019882014-02-20T20:42:00.001-06:002014-02-20T20:42:14.982-06:00Growing everyday<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Everyday I feel like I'm growing and learning from my perfectionism. It's certainly been a long process to be where I'm at today, but I know deep inside I'm growing. I'm getting better. I'm healing. <br />
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The reason I know this, is that just the other week I spent latter part of a Friday afternoon planning a surprise trip for my husband's birthday. I booked a hotel, planned out the entire day, found out what activities were open and where, made an appointment for while we there, I even went as far as creating a poem to surprise him with it. I had planed what I call the "PERFECT VACATION!" The only problem was I had done all of this planning for a weekend that wasn't even free. It was the weekend that the kids were going to be gone.<br />
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Now, the reason I'm telling you all of this, is because I know, that even 10 months ago, I wouldn't have done anything like this. Make a mistake that would have seemed so obvious. But I did. I made a mistake, I'm not perfect. Move on I told myself.<br />
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And so I laughed out loud at myself. HUH! I said. Oh well, I'll just call and change my reservations. I didn't even get upset. And that's when it hit me, that I'm healing. You see, before, the perfectionist in me would have been torn down, beaten and defeated. But not now.<br />
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My point is to let you know that you may be feeling these same feelings. Maybe it's you getting upset if you make a mistake, or book the wrong weekend. The point is, you have to learn not to get upset. Learn to let go. And yes my child, learn to grow everyday.<br />
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Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12203482124642717500noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8042553147626483254.post-60675885376539198342014-01-26T15:23:00.001-06:002014-01-26T15:23:31.700-06:00Stop being scared of the future<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Have you ever been scared to take the next step in your progress of life? Scared to move forward because you are afraid of what might happen? Scared about the future? Why is it that so many times we have these feelings in our head about what's going to happen in the future. For so long, I was scared to take the next step, scared to move forward, because what if it wasn't perfect? What if it wasn't the perfect moment?<br />
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I think that we as individuals have to start living our life, living it not being scared of what could happen, but living it, so that we are happy with what is happening. Right now. It's hard though, I get it. When you want everything in control. You want everything to turn out just perfectly. You want life to just go by easily and if it's all perfect, than the better. But life isn't all about that. You don't have to be scared to take the next step, or worry about what's waiting on the other side. Just live in the present. It's amazing the power of this statement and how much this has really helped me heal. </div>
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