I tend to try to analyze my imperfections. When it seems like I have analyzed one imperfection, paused, taken a moment to stop and reflect, the next imperfection is hitting me in the face. What I mean by this is that I tend to analyze areas in my life where I'm not as perfect as can be, or things that I have done wrong, or areas where I've mistaken. I analyze them, think about them and try to come up with ways on how to do better.
Just being good, is not good enough, I tell myself. And so, I double my efforts, take care of myself less often, work harder, wake up earlier and try to do better. Analyzing imperfections is often my way of giving myself my own guilt trip, my own standard, my own understanding of what I did wrong.
But what ends up happening when I get in this vicious cycle, is just when I have one imperfection analyzed and thought out, the next imperfection comes skipping in. In reality, I'm trying to be perfect at everything, and when I'm not, I consider that an imperfection. And that's so wrong. It's taken me a long time to comprehend this thought, but when we are not perfect, that does not by any means make us a failure....make an imperfection. We don't have time to be perfect at everything. And we certainly don't have time to sit and analyze imperfections, trying every moment to make them better. Like I said, it's taken me a long time to comprehend this thought, but it is a key revolution if you can train your mind to think about that. It will be a key point in your healing.
Just being good, is not good enough, I tell myself. And so, I double my efforts, take care of myself less often, work harder, wake up earlier and try to do better. Analyzing imperfections is often my way of giving myself my own guilt trip, my own standard, my own understanding of what I did wrong.
But what ends up happening when I get in this vicious cycle, is just when I have one imperfection analyzed and thought out, the next imperfection comes skipping in. In reality, I'm trying to be perfect at everything, and when I'm not, I consider that an imperfection. And that's so wrong. It's taken me a long time to comprehend this thought, but when we are not perfect, that does not by any means make us a failure....make an imperfection. We don't have time to be perfect at everything. And we certainly don't have time to sit and analyze imperfections, trying every moment to make them better. Like I said, it's taken me a long time to comprehend this thought, but it is a key revolution if you can train your mind to think about that. It will be a key point in your healing.
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