Everyday I feel like I'm growing and learning from my perfectionism. It's certainly been a long process to be where I'm at today, but I know deep inside I'm growing. I'm getting better. I'm healing.
The reason I know this, is that just the other week I spent latter part of a Friday afternoon planning a surprise trip for my husband's birthday. I booked a hotel, planned out the entire day, found out what activities were open and where, made an appointment for while we there, I even went as far as creating a poem to surprise him with it. I had planed what I call the "PERFECT VACATION!" The only problem was I had done all of this planning for a weekend that wasn't even free. It was the weekend that the kids were going to be gone.
Now, the reason I'm telling you all of this, is because I know, that even 10 months ago, I wouldn't have done anything like this. Make a mistake that would have seemed so obvious. But I did. I made a mistake, I'm not perfect. Move on I told myself.
And so I laughed out loud at myself. HUH! I said. Oh well, I'll just call and change my reservations. I didn't even get upset. And that's when it hit me, that I'm healing. You see, before, the perfectionist in me would have been torn down, beaten and defeated. But not now.
My point is to let you know that you may be feeling these same feelings. Maybe it's you getting upset if you make a mistake, or book the wrong weekend. The point is, you have to learn not to get upset. Learn to let go. And yes my child, learn to grow everyday.
The reason I know this, is that just the other week I spent latter part of a Friday afternoon planning a surprise trip for my husband's birthday. I booked a hotel, planned out the entire day, found out what activities were open and where, made an appointment for while we there, I even went as far as creating a poem to surprise him with it. I had planed what I call the "PERFECT VACATION!" The only problem was I had done all of this planning for a weekend that wasn't even free. It was the weekend that the kids were going to be gone.
Now, the reason I'm telling you all of this, is because I know, that even 10 months ago, I wouldn't have done anything like this. Make a mistake that would have seemed so obvious. But I did. I made a mistake, I'm not perfect. Move on I told myself.
And so I laughed out loud at myself. HUH! I said. Oh well, I'll just call and change my reservations. I didn't even get upset. And that's when it hit me, that I'm healing. You see, before, the perfectionist in me would have been torn down, beaten and defeated. But not now.
My point is to let you know that you may be feeling these same feelings. Maybe it's you getting upset if you make a mistake, or book the wrong weekend. The point is, you have to learn not to get upset. Learn to let go. And yes my child, learn to grow everyday.
